Foul mood day…

Foul mood day…

Probably I shouldn’t even put myself in the test when I am not ready. But only when I get my results I realize I haven’t lock those ‘theories’ in the heart yet. The mind has these but the heart outruns the mind this time.

Mmm I tot I am getting on my best rhythm. But when I started to see certain bits of past or some related “human beings”, it still gripped the heart a little. It explains my rejection of iphone or even sight of an iphone or its advertisement.

Until when I am really able to own one, I am truly ok?

But I still chose not to, I want something that fits my character my lifestyle not just pursuing new things blindly or peer challenges.

I will continue to face the past. This time I chose to face it and let new things flow into my life. Life is wonderful! Tomorrow is mystery! I should look forward to the unexpected!

Stubborn old memories not suppose to be in there, will lose its grip on me soon. Soonest!

I will continue to pursue things for myself not like a victim of peer influence or the sickening past.

Only if you believe….everything will happen?

(Mmm just that there are times u do feel tired of the discipline to focus….that you tot you are losing yourself again…)