Things you probably remember for life

Found this in my diary written sometimes back during the dark days...

Sometimes couldnt't be flying around online. But few i would like to rememeber and share.

Part I
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Things you probably remember for life

It feels alittle butterfly in there to have words from heart online.

Part of me hope that only ppl wont know me well read all these. Arghh..

I have pretty bad memories probably due to low storage space or no regular upkeep of my cpu :p

But there are some particular things you will rememeber for life. Good or bad, they are in your mind, in your heart. Probably some bad memories become good ones while those once sweet ones become a scar in there.

One morning, i switched on this row of side lights in a meeting room. When that doesn't make a differences to the lighting effect, i switched it off. At that moment, i realise like it, I no longer contribute any difference or brightness in someone's life. This weak light can be switched off anytime and it would not cause any effect anymore. It is such a simple thing but the person refused to see the fact. I stood for a while switching on and off, on and off, then laughed at myself. Maybe that light was just left hanging on till it finally fused off, or maybe it is just left on since it doesnt bring any diff.

A friend told me it is up to individual to choose to forget, that there is no point to look back to those so called promises or whatever been said once cos they can become anyone's words when no action attached.

Probably i should not even believe. Well that is past. Today is tomorrow's history. I hope I can refresh my brain.

The choice is of cos to forget cos the least i want is to obstruct someone and stain over the undones, past or promises. The person would still be a special one in there. The last i want to remember are those legs swinging happily in the air of the dark breezy and starless sky, legs paddling in the clear water and the umbrella that swayed towards my side with warm arms wrapping around tightly in the pouring rain. Sweetest and most painful scenes that i would remember it this way.

It is going to be a long bitter war again and again. Alcohol will rock the baby to sleep till she can finally smile in her dreams.

Tata.