Dazey: Instant

It is going to be a wordy one *BEEP - WARNING* Maybe I don't write that well or sharing too much emotionals publicly on line. So I usually post with pictures as they speak thousands words.

And usually we are all attracted and stopped by colours and images.

But I happen to chance upon this blog sometime this month and somehow I paused to read and keep it in the favorite folder and reading goes on. The girl probably at younger age writes in mature manner sharing her timely feelings in fact there is not much pictures, not even to mention any doe-eyed self pictures.

I love reading of course most of the time I got stray by beautiful photos too admiring them. But I was attracted by her as I almost could feel how she felt in an honest and somewhat raw way she presented.

I start to reflected on myself and how I started this blog when I was consider 'over aged" at then haha.

There was a rather bad twist in life that changes me and my life, ya much thanks to relationship. And this leads me to understand how such bad emotion can lead someone to depression, and to even end your own life at worst.

But fortunately I survived. At then I tot it was so unfortunate to live on. I wanted to mark and remember this terrible phrase and how supportive friends have pulled me up from that broken bridge. I started this blog from then to document my feelings, thanks my friends and how happy I can become. Most of the times I try not to put negative blogs. But I should be inputting fair amount of blogs in words ya?

You know it takes longer time for me to blog nowadays not only b'cos I am in a changing situation phrase but photos are not ready so I can't do blogging is my current mentality.

I should try to cut down photos and have more words when I have instant feelings..

I think so.

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Well to share alittle, I’m at the new company for more than a month now chew, it reminded me of earlier days when I entered the previous company when I was rather nervous. I am getting better now but I think I will get even more used to it later on.

Emotions are a big part of who I am, I dont want to deny how I feel and so I’m learning to work around them. The job scope is not entirely foreign but there were some tasks that need more guidance as we to access the systems, follow with special skill from excel that were so alien to me. It quickly occurred to me that this was where the learning curve was going to start. I thought my experience and skill should be quite ample for new challenges before this. In field of corporate world, while there are some who may need more time to be warmed, most others are really helpful and seem genuine whom I can count on to provide familiarity and a sense of groundedness.

In the midst of new situations, moving to stay with the in-laws is also part of the emotion. I have to say I am so blessed to have DD's family. DD's mum and sis and even sis-in law are all so nice and warm people. DD mum will worry I don't take breakfast or lunch and make sure we have really good homecook dinner. She even remember to cook more vegetables for me each time. I appreciate that so much b'cos only my mum will remember that. The family connection comes easier and I am happy. It was just the part about missing so many loves and the familarity all at once need time to balance the emotion. My family and my ex colleagues.

And when I thought the renovation of our new place took such a long while to get done, then it was almost ready for our move in. You know when you get familar with one place then you gotta move again. Suddenly saddness grows on me when we were leaving DD's place this week. I am sad for DD's mum too who definately will feel abit weird when she will see DD's room empty for good.

Anyway since I cant do away with pictures all at once :p

Here are few non edited pics. Our first dinner together in our new nest - altogether hahaa...

Guess what? Vietnamese! haha